Isaac makes it pretty clean cut about what he wants, though I question the credibility of his statements.  I've not a clue if it's all for the sake of all of these intermingled "relationships" with "friends" that prevent his cowardly ass from giving us a try, or if he's not attracted to/curious enough about me.

I myself am ... decided on what I should do- which is to be civil and not go out of my way to be so kind to him... but I'm not sure if that's what I want to do.  Would i regret it?  Would i look back at this time and regret that I was a pushover, letting him off easy?  Would i beat myself up later on for having let myself become so vulnerable, and not even follow through?

But what if i didn't.  If i really am going to try- again- what if i push his buttons and he really lets me have it and "fuck things up".  That... would be no good.  Yet, even though he doens't like "where this is headed", he lets things happen.  Doesn't that imply that he doesn't dislike ME and all of THIS for what it is?  

He's so fucking scared of everything.  He's trying hard, as usual, to convert his fear into annoyance.  Why must he persecute and deprive himself...