My grandpa passed away this afternoon.
I feel like my heart's floating a couple inches away from my body, outside my body- i can't really feel anything...

yet my nose does tickle as though i'm about to sneeze, there's definitely a lump in my throat, and my eyes.. my eyes- erg. it's just all wrong. i *think* i'm about to break down and cry but i'm not.

what's also fucked up is that there's going to be a big ass family reunion at the funeral location. i have a huge weird, selfish, fucked up family on my dad's side.

what's WORST? asshole tried to give me a hug and tell me "it's okay, people die". i can't even begin to describe how wrong this whole situation is. he fuckgin dared to touch me again for one, and i thought i'd fucking pass out.